the gist of it….

I’ve been up all night. Insomnia is once again kicking my ass. I had  a shrink appointment on Thursday last week and he changed my meds. I just keep forgetting to take them b/c i’ve been off meds so long. I’ve been pulling long nights for awhile now. Going to bed after 5-6 am and getting up between 10 and 11 am. Hubs is here to watch the kids so its not really a big deal. But the lack of sleep plays with my moods and is a huge trigger. Anyone who is bipolar or has a bipolar loved one knows how important a set sleep schedule is.

I’m seriously loving this cat. Its kinda a strange sensation for me b/c i’ve been so anti-animal for so long. I think its mainly b/c hubs kept bringing home dogs and I don’t like dogs at all. But the cat is great! He prefers me over anyone else. He spends most of his time hiding in my computer desk. If i’m working at my pc he is up behind my monitor sleeping or if he wants to play he chases my hands while I type. Right now he is standing infront of my monitor making it difficult for me to see what i’m typing.. Good thing I can type..If i’m not paying attention to him he will come up to me and paw at me until I give him my attention. During the day he hides most of the time. Mainly from the kids. He will only eat if the kids are outside or asleep. He hasnt bugged hubs too much. Hubs hasnt said anything about him and he’s pretty anti cat.. Mainly b/c this cat is pretty damn well mannered. He knows how to turn the knob on my speakers so if i’m listening to music he keeps turning it down on me and he also knows how to flip lightswitches on and off. The lady I got him from made sure to inform me of his talents before I took him..lol He’s a great cat.. So far.. Just gotta convince him to stay off the kitchen table!

I hurt my back yesterday. I don’t know what I did but the pain started off really really mild and then progressively got worse as the night wore on. I’m pretty sure I did it picking up Wyatt b/c he is always hanging on my arms pulling me down to him. I’m pretty sure its a pulled muscle. Its my back but more in my shoulder blade. Its a very localized pain. If I could reach I could point to the exact spot the pain is at. I can lift my arm with no problem. But sitting, standing, bending, laying down.. it all hurts really badly. I can’t get comfortable no matter what. The pain is there. It hurts to breathe and taking a deep breathe is pretty damn painful. IT borders on excrutiating. And b/c of the heat and humidity its wreaking havoc on my asthma I feel like im constantly trying to take a deep breath. I’ve got muscle relaxers and anti inflammatories for when the athritis acts up in my shoulder and its not touching it. Not even a tiny bit. They made me nice and loopy in my head but have failed to touch the pain..

I mentioned before I have another blog. It’s a bit darker, more not family friendly, i’m more outspoken on my thoughts and feelings and Its mostly/mainly for my bipolar. Its where I write about that and a few other things. It’s not something everyone is  interested in or would want to read(plus my language is not always decent. Some might find my writings or what i write about offensive). It opens up a different side of me…If you are interested in the link let me know and i’ll see about emailing you the link. make sure you leave me a good email addy. or drop me a line at toshasharp(at)gmail(dot)com

OH! Yeah!! This is my 100th post!! WOOT!